exam haven't finish... sunday... and tomorow is my last exam and holiday start at 4pm..=]
today been such a blessing for me and my spiritual life.. is awakening alarm for me.. ps. sukirno from indonesia come and spread the word of God in our church and truly he spread God's desire and wants to my life and for sure He wants the same thing for your life=]
the sermon came from luke 14:25-35..
there is a story about two traveler who travel in a hot air balloon. they carry so much things so, the balloon is heavy and that's how they control the balloon. to help then to reach t the destinastion they need to throw their 'valuable' things. first thing that they throw was magazines, then a portable chair.. and many more.. till finally they need to throw their drinking water that is so important for them. our christian life is like that, God wants us to focus on Him and LOVE HIM ONLY! we cant love this earthly thing while we want to love God in the same time. we as human being always have so many wish list and always wants this and that. while we having our long list and seek God, pray to Him and ask Him to fulfill our list, in our mind we always set that God need to fulfill the list. but we forget that God's answer to a pray is not always yes, can sometime be no and may be or hold on. at this point we start to get upset when we know that God's answer is no. we never realize that the long list that we made is a WANT list not a NEEDS. God not only knows the good for us but the BEST!
when we set our life to God, we need to pay the cost! what cost? isnt that being a follower of Jesus is free? and He already pay everything for us on the cross? hah?? =/
YES! follow Jesus we dont need to pay anything in Money.. but, we need to pay the cost like time, family and etc. for example you need to have a relationship with God by Praying and you need to spare your time to pray! may be at the time where you facebooking, watching tv or drama, can be any of your valuable time. you need to give up things that is 'important' for you.
following Jesus you need to be the salt and light to the world. The scripture says that what is the purpose of being christian indeed we need to be a salt and bring impact to the world but, in fact we fail. the salt is tasteless and we are just the same as others. who goes clubbing, gossiping, and etc. this is the cost that God's talking about. for example when group of people start to gossips, then you came, whats their reaction? 1) they will come ask you to join because they know that you are a good gossipers? or 2) they will tell others to stop, because they know you dont like to gossips and people respect you.
this sermon really kick me off and wake me up! lord i pray, forgive me that i haven't be a good sheep and daughter to you, help me and guide me according to your will.
i hope this can bless you guys and keep following God, yes, we need to pay the cost but, the reward is much more!!! He promise for an eternal life! what can we ask for more? =]]
stay blessed!
xoxo
He leads me! and its ABUNDANT!!
God will never ask you to do something where His grace doesn't provide you through.. another truth that i know but its too hard for me to accept. i feel so pissed and upset these days... things that happen surround me has hurt me. its like when you nail a wood and you take of the nail, the hole is still there and that's happen to me. but all i know.. his abundant grace and presence is more than enough for me...another feeling of burdened and another feeling of upset.. makes my days full of haters and grieve.
sometimes i think i'm the stupid and childish person alive! its actually about a friend who has make a mess with me and the more mess she made.. i call her ''princess'' haha... its not only a name but it reflecting her attitude and her personality! she has double face and if you heard my story about princess you will straight away tell me that im the evil one... but after you know the truth then you will see and realize that she is princess! ahahaha.. sometimes i feel that my life is like a korean drama hahahah....the more she come and involve her self in my life the more mess she made! i dont expect that! and i dont ever want her to be part of my life. but sometimes the more you reject it. the worse it will be and i believe He knows me well.. He knows the best for me.. not just good, but best! and God never gives us a bad gifts.. not like your boyfriend that still a human can always makes mistakes and makes you upset. but He is Jehova Jireh, He is my provider.
i feel like my problem is like you pray so hard to ask what you want but, it's fail! the prayer answer that He gives is not always YES but sometimes can be NO or LATER... now God's answer is NO... i've ask him not to make her part of my life but, as i ask.. and even harder i pray or ask.. everything went totally wrong from my plan and my expectation!..it seems like God really test me out..want me to be His Humble servant. when this problem came and when i reflect my self then i realize is that how you give your whole life to God, wher the answer to all prayer wants to be your way and your answer.. intead of His..???
oh well.. actually being upset and angry of the thing that you doesnt need to be is useless... i fell this problem make me angry and take my Joy and love that God has given away!... i fell so sad that i start lossing my peace, joy and love,... i know that i need that more than anything.. even gold.. diamonds... designer stuff.. of course i can still live without this temorary stuff but not without my Lord...
i know i need to get rid of the haters and the anger also the upset from all this thing.. but i belive and i allow Him to do it according to His will and His perfect time... by my mouth i can say i forgive princess.. but i can say not yet with my heart... so all i do is just allow Him and Holy Spirit to work...
as i've been bless... i believe you guys can feel the same! so..
watch this one and be blessed!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nq9FMrBeN4U
Because of who you are
I will lift my hands
I will lift my heart
and sing a song of love to you
...because of who you are
I offer you my life
surrendering my all,
a living sacrifice to you
because of who you are
everything you are (2x)
Chorus:
I give you all the glory
I give you all the praise
I pledge to you each moment
for the length of all my days
my rock and my redeemer
my savior and my strength
Oh I will ever praise you
Yes I will ever praise you
Yes I will ever praise you, Lord
because of who you are
sometimes i think i'm the stupid and childish person alive! its actually about a friend who has make a mess with me and the more mess she made.. i call her ''princess'' haha... its not only a name but it reflecting her attitude and her personality! she has double face and if you heard my story about princess you will straight away tell me that im the evil one... but after you know the truth then you will see and realize that she is princess! ahahaha.. sometimes i feel that my life is like a korean drama hahahah....the more she come and involve her self in my life the more mess she made! i dont expect that! and i dont ever want her to be part of my life. but sometimes the more you reject it. the worse it will be and i believe He knows me well.. He knows the best for me.. not just good, but best! and God never gives us a bad gifts.. not like your boyfriend that still a human can always makes mistakes and makes you upset. but He is Jehova Jireh, He is my provider.
i feel like my problem is like you pray so hard to ask what you want but, it's fail! the prayer answer that He gives is not always YES but sometimes can be NO or LATER... now God's answer is NO... i've ask him not to make her part of my life but, as i ask.. and even harder i pray or ask.. everything went totally wrong from my plan and my expectation!..it seems like God really test me out..want me to be His Humble servant. when this problem came and when i reflect my self then i realize is that how you give your whole life to God, wher the answer to all prayer wants to be your way and your answer.. intead of His..???
oh well.. actually being upset and angry of the thing that you doesnt need to be is useless... i fell this problem make me angry and take my Joy and love that God has given away!... i fell so sad that i start lossing my peace, joy and love,... i know that i need that more than anything.. even gold.. diamonds... designer stuff.. of course i can still live without this temorary stuff but not without my Lord...
i know i need to get rid of the haters and the anger also the upset from all this thing.. but i belive and i allow Him to do it according to His will and His perfect time... by my mouth i can say i forgive princess.. but i can say not yet with my heart... so all i do is just allow Him and Holy Spirit to work...
as i've been bless... i believe you guys can feel the same! so..
watch this one and be blessed!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nq9FMrBeN4U
Because of who you are
I will lift my hands
I will lift my heart
and sing a song of love to you
...because of who you are
I offer you my life
surrendering my all,
a living sacrifice to you
because of who you are
everything you are (2x)
Chorus:
I give you all the glory
I give you all the praise
I pledge to you each moment
for the length of all my days
my rock and my redeemer
my savior and my strength
Oh I will ever praise you
Yes I will ever praise you
Yes I will ever praise you, Lord
because of who you are
Welcoming My Mr. Pink
today is the arriving of my Mr. pink diana f+. i get the deluxe kit with the extra instant back, camera strap, fish eye submarine and diana canon mount=] how full is the kit? HAHHA... well... i get it cheap from this lomography.com compare to what melbourne city offer.. hehe.. i get this diana and it was shipped to my cousin house in la.. and he help me to ship back here... i actually can get it shipped straight to my apartment but.. because of my obsession to Mr. Pink diana f+ deluxe kit so they are not available if i get it ship to melbourne. so i need my cousin=]] but... after.. all of this shipping problem.. my diana went so expensive.. HAHA... i ask my cousin to use the cheapest post office to ship to my apartment. as i consider how wealth is Australia and America.. compare to indonesia.. so, i'm pretty sure that my thing wouldnt get lost. but.. my cousin say there is o difference between the normal carrier and good one.. so he end up using fedex! which i end up paying extra 272 for carrier fee.. HAHAH.. how cheap is that? hee... the goo thing about fedex it take your thing up to your apartment and the thing is ready in front of your door.. rather you going down or post office to take you thing! hahha... oh.. i thing i just comfort my self after that 272 ahahhaha.. LOL.... but Mr. pink is not available in city store melbourne... so is kinda worth HAHA.. >.<'' keep you guys updated with the result of the diana photo taking!^^* now... this is the photo and the unpacking process... >.<''
Diana in the delivery box!
woop..bubble wrap! my mom love this alot... she like to pop the air away! while watchig tv! ahaha...
here we go my diana...=]]
this is what is get! the kit.. and extras...^^*
i get the notebook and bag as a free gift from them,,.. its quite cute... the bag is the 10 golden rules of lomo raphy.. will post it next time=]]
Diana in the delivery box!
woop..bubble wrap! my mom love this alot... she like to pop the air away! while watchig tv! ahaha...
here we go my diana...=]]
this is what is get! the kit.. and extras...^^*i get the notebook and bag as a free gift from them,,.. its quite cute... the bag is the 10 golden rules of lomo raphy.. will post it next time=]]
Little Date
let me introduce my other half.. =]] hehe...his name is Hendra and he's currently doing his honors degree in swinburne university =]] we've been going out almost 45 months=] he gets to know me well=] and know how to make me happy! haha.. 'Quality Time' is first my love language and he knows it.. haha.. so we go on our little date.. quite unexpected date.
ive bought..
Good Food Guide 2010
and..
Cheap Eats 2010 by the age. ^^
basically this book just give you all the information where you can find the good and cheap food that has been tested or recommended=]
yet some of my fave place is not in the book.. it doesnt mean that the place is not good haha.. everyone has different taste of good-ness right? hehe..
so we went out for a movie and dinner! ahaha... we go to hoyts in melbourne central and watch Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time.. it was not bad.. cool.. hehe..
picture before the movie start! haha
after that we go to federation square and went to taxi restaurant. we go up and wait for our table. we didnt book! so we dont know whether we can get a seat or not. but, we ended up getting it! =]] luck? haha.. no.. i think the restaurant is not fully book on that night, cause we can see some free table.
why we choose taxi? as mentioned in the Good food guide rate with two hats and the got an award of brown brothers wine list of the year. i get curious so we try out! as my boy friend like japanese food and i look on the description taxi is based on modern food with japanese presence =]] its rate of 16 out of 20 and for the score of 16 its means that excellent: worth seeking out. thats how it gets me more curious and wanna try out!
we love the soft butter and the sesame bread! nice!and as usual, our fave drink!lemon lime bitters..=]
my Boy friend with His sesame bread and soft butter..
Look.. He get bored of too much taking picture...
''stop taking picture la..~~'' he said .. sorry hun..i just love to take picture=p
here we go.. our food.. hmm... we didnt order this.. what is this? Complimentary from the chef!=]]
mushroom and something with truffle oil.. *i forget the exact name!* haha.. opps.. the only thing i remember is.. its creamy and yum! haha
love this shoots.. he smile! because of i'm sneaking out to take his picture! haha...
''des.. look how many drink that you have?.. tsk..tsk..'' water.. lemonlime bitters.. moscato! my fave wine.. *sadly this is from other brand, not brown brothers.. they dont serve brown brothers.. thats why.. i wonder how come they got the award..this is 2008 moscato.. i want 2003.. or older.. cant find!* and empty glass.. =='' haha...
foie grass with terrine and bread.. chutney and peach and.. *sorry will try to remember next tym*=]]
new style of king fish sashimi serve with pomegranate dressing and salad.. special menu of the day! *finally can remember! haha*
the foie grass and terrine on my plate!
i think its king fish *forgot the fish* with crab dumpling serve with crab broth and scalop.. dont like the dumpling and love the fish crispy yet soft texture and the sweetness from the broth.. my bf say its like one of chinese food from our home town! or His mom cook..haha.. its like a comfort food and its like modern asian kind of food.
His food.. its a wagyu steak with sour cream wasabi and teriyaki sauce..
this is what we order for our dessert.. poached pear in red whine serve with pear sponge and lemon sorbet.. because the waiters spill the water on my bf lap..*but luck my bf didnt get any water in his clothing* so this is the apology and another complimentary from the chef! i think they really feel sorry about it! haha... can see how busy they was when the waiters spill the water..=]
finally we are done! and get back home!
love still in the air..
one thing for all of couples.. try to know your GF/BF/partner/wife/husband/spouse LOVE language!!!
there is five love languange and some of people has more than one but, they must have their strongest love language.. here we go the five love language: its universal!
1)Words of Affirmation,
2)Quality Time,
3)Receiving Gifts,
4)Acts of Service,
5)and Physical Touch.
so.. start to figure out his or her five love language! and see how your relationship goes! =]]
or simply you can take the quiz in http://www.5lovelanguages.com/
or get the book by gary chapman! this one is the general, basic one.. he also publish many different version! i have one for my self=]
hope you like it! and may God make your relationship wonderful also your journey with Him=]]
God Bless you guys! xoxo
in His Grace,
-D
ive bought..
Good Food Guide 2010and..
Cheap Eats 2010 by the age. ^^basically this book just give you all the information where you can find the good and cheap food that has been tested or recommended=]
yet some of my fave place is not in the book.. it doesnt mean that the place is not good haha.. everyone has different taste of good-ness right? hehe..
so we went out for a movie and dinner! ahaha... we go to hoyts in melbourne central and watch Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time.. it was not bad.. cool.. hehe..
picture before the movie start! hahaafter that we go to federation square and went to taxi restaurant. we go up and wait for our table. we didnt book! so we dont know whether we can get a seat or not. but, we ended up getting it! =]] luck? haha.. no.. i think the restaurant is not fully book on that night, cause we can see some free table.
why we choose taxi? as mentioned in the Good food guide rate with two hats and the got an award of brown brothers wine list of the year. i get curious so we try out! as my boy friend like japanese food and i look on the description taxi is based on modern food with japanese presence =]] its rate of 16 out of 20 and for the score of 16 its means that excellent: worth seeking out. thats how it gets me more curious and wanna try out!
we love the soft butter and the sesame bread! nice!and as usual, our fave drink!lemon lime bitters..=] 
my Boy friend with His sesame bread and soft butter..
Look.. He get bored of too much taking picture...
''stop taking picture la..~~'' he said .. sorry hun..i just love to take picture=p
here we go.. our food.. hmm... we didnt order this.. what is this? Complimentary from the chef!=]]
mushroom and something with truffle oil.. *i forget the exact name!* haha.. opps.. the only thing i remember is.. its creamy and yum! haha
love this shoots.. he smile! because of i'm sneaking out to take his picture! haha...
''des.. look how many drink that you have?.. tsk..tsk..'' water.. lemonlime bitters.. moscato! my fave wine.. *sadly this is from other brand, not brown brothers.. they dont serve brown brothers.. thats why.. i wonder how come they got the award..this is 2008 moscato.. i want 2003.. or older.. cant find!* and empty glass.. =='' haha...
foie grass with terrine and bread.. chutney and peach and.. *sorry will try to remember next tym*=]] 
new style of king fish sashimi serve with pomegranate dressing and salad.. special menu of the day! *finally can remember! haha*
the foie grass and terrine on my plate!
i think its king fish *forgot the fish* with crab dumpling serve with crab broth and scalop.. dont like the dumpling and love the fish crispy yet soft texture and the sweetness from the broth.. my bf say its like one of chinese food from our home town! or His mom cook..haha.. its like a comfort food and its like modern asian kind of food.
His food.. its a wagyu steak with sour cream wasabi and teriyaki sauce.. 
this is what we order for our dessert.. poached pear in red whine serve with pear sponge and lemon sorbet.. because the waiters spill the water on my bf lap..*but luck my bf didnt get any water in his clothing* so this is the apology and another complimentary from the chef! i think they really feel sorry about it! haha... can see how busy they was when the waiters spill the water..=]
finally we are done! and get back home!
love still in the air..
one thing for all of couples.. try to know your GF/BF/partner/wife/husband/spouse LOVE language!!!
there is five love languange and some of people has more than one but, they must have their strongest love language.. here we go the five love language: its universal!
1)Words of Affirmation,
2)Quality Time,
3)Receiving Gifts,
4)Acts of Service,
5)and Physical Touch.
so.. start to figure out his or her five love language! and see how your relationship goes! =]]
or simply you can take the quiz in http://www.5lovelanguages.com/
or get the book by gary chapman! this one is the general, basic one.. he also publish many different version! i have one for my self=]hope you like it! and may God make your relationship wonderful also your journey with Him=]]
God Bless you guys! xoxo
in His Grace,
-D
Productive study?? =p
Today 3rd of june..time run.. and flies so fast its june! and mid of 2010..good sign? nope! i'm going to face exams papers soon! haha... here we go today is suppose to be aa... another hardworking day of studying in library and what i need to do is focus and be productive! haha... indeed... i wake up at 8.45 and my bestie call me for a morning call.. haha.. i already awake before she call.. amazing.. last night i sleep at 2 and has a 'so-so' rating sleep of 6 hours! still praise the lord! no night mare and still sleep and save! haha.. recently before i went off to bed i dont feel secure. but He look and take care of me so, i can have a Good 6 hours sleep! ahaahaha... (praise God!)
ok, back to my existence in rmit library..hihi.. i arrive at library at 11.45 and see what happen?? haha.. ok i do a little study till 1 o'clock and...
we went out for lunch to han guuk guan in between victoria st and spring st.
this restaurant is another recommended korean restaurant in town. if you love korean food try and enjoy! as most of resto offer, lunch price is always cheaper than dinner! haha... i like the side dishes! hehe.. one of the reason why my friend come back to the han guuk guan.. besides its free, its delicious! what can you ask for more? hehe... yuuummm
today they have the omelet, which usually they don't.. its delicious! and we love the potato (which not in this picture) and the beansprouttttttt..=]] we always ask for more of this... we ask another serve of omelet.. and 2 more serve of beansprout and potato..=]] haha.. personally i cont like the kimchi from han guuk guan.. hehe.. may be they use the ready to serve kimci from the supermarket rather making by their own, if you a kimchi fans.. you should try the kimchin in Hwaro restaurant =]] in hwaro i can eat more tha 4 serve of their kimchi.. they are not too sour and its quite spicy..=]]and it has no smell.. where as han guuk guan has the after smell, i dont like it! =]]
because we are so in love with the side dishes.. the waiters kinda remember to us and always give the black face when we ask for more.. =.='' till one day he tell us ''we as a korean didn't like side dishes because we think it's a cheap food. so i dont understand how come you guys like it!'' hahah... may be he dont like how we ask him for more side dishes.. hehe..
ok.. so i order yuk gae jang... perfect for windy and cold day! =]]
this is a beef spicy soup with potato noodle..=]] nice! today they give me alot of the filling.. not just broth =]] (but this photo i get from google.. yuk gae jang from oriental spoon.. anothe nice korean resto.. i get this photo to give you guys an illustration of yuk gae jang..=]])
that day i feel so full.. even i dont have my dinner.. ahhaa...
after we finish our lunch.. its already 2 o'clock and we have a emergency revision class for microbiology 1 and we get back to library, get our stuff and go to the revision class..
while we wait for our teacher to come.. see what we do.. haha...
the shoes of the day! haha...
accidentally me and my friend, julia we wear the same shoe.. and the other 2 friend also wear the same style of shoe... haha...
the revision class is totally disappointing! its just a repetition of the last class that we had.. she didnt tell much about the exam and it seem she say 'study everything!' ahhaha.. you should know how thick is our lecture notes! haha.. and how many types of bacteria and tests that we need to remember haha...
the class run for one hour and we went back again to library and as my friend julia need to buy tights for her mom so i accompany her to go=]]
we went to myer.. and as you know.. girls dont go straight to the place that they need to go.. so we pass all this store in melbourne central and finally we reach myer..
we didnt get any in melbourne central.. but we do window shopping! haha (confession!!)
we reach myer and we dont go straight to stockings department! haha.. we pass this mens wear and we found that tommy hilfiger and polo ralph laurent is on sale.. guess what... haha... i end up buying 4 jumper and 2 polo.. BUT this all for my boy friend and gift for coming up friend birthday =]] hehe...good buy! then we bought our self a tight and i get a bargain $7 tight! hehe... winter preparation! =]]
after we finish from stocking department.. our shopping continue and we went to ben sherman sale.. hehe.. and i end up buying 11 items from them.. haha.. ckck,... see how productive is my study! haha... *shy shy*
oh well because too much to carry (excuse! just because no more money! haha.. nope.. no mere we can buy!) we went back to library and see what.. while we are going for shopping..
how cute.. hehe..but im not a red bull drinker.. so i give to my friend..=]
then the study start! till 12pm i went back home and have my beauty sleep after a tiring day!
this is student life during study week..=]]
xoxo
-D
ok, back to my existence in rmit library..hihi.. i arrive at library at 11.45 and see what happen?? haha.. ok i do a little study till 1 o'clock and...
we went out for lunch to han guuk guan in between victoria st and spring st.
this restaurant is another recommended korean restaurant in town. if you love korean food try and enjoy! as most of resto offer, lunch price is always cheaper than dinner! haha... i like the side dishes! hehe.. one of the reason why my friend come back to the han guuk guan.. besides its free, its delicious! what can you ask for more? hehe... yuuummm
today they have the omelet, which usually they don't.. its delicious! and we love the potato (which not in this picture) and the beansprouttttttt..=]] we always ask for more of this... we ask another serve of omelet.. and 2 more serve of beansprout and potato..=]] haha.. personally i cont like the kimchi from han guuk guan.. hehe.. may be they use the ready to serve kimci from the supermarket rather making by their own, if you a kimchi fans.. you should try the kimchin in Hwaro restaurant =]] in hwaro i can eat more tha 4 serve of their kimchi.. they are not too sour and its quite spicy..=]]and it has no smell.. where as han guuk guan has the after smell, i dont like it! =]]
because we are so in love with the side dishes.. the waiters kinda remember to us and always give the black face when we ask for more.. =.='' till one day he tell us ''we as a korean didn't like side dishes because we think it's a cheap food. so i dont understand how come you guys like it!'' hahah... may be he dont like how we ask him for more side dishes.. hehe..
ok.. so i order yuk gae jang... perfect for windy and cold day! =]]
this is a beef spicy soup with potato noodle..=]] nice! today they give me alot of the filling.. not just broth =]] (but this photo i get from google.. yuk gae jang from oriental spoon.. anothe nice korean resto.. i get this photo to give you guys an illustration of yuk gae jang..=]])
that day i feel so full.. even i dont have my dinner.. ahhaa...
after we finish our lunch.. its already 2 o'clock and we have a emergency revision class for microbiology 1 and we get back to library, get our stuff and go to the revision class..
while we wait for our teacher to come.. see what we do.. haha...
the shoes of the day! haha...
accidentally me and my friend, julia we wear the same shoe.. and the other 2 friend also wear the same style of shoe... haha...
the revision class is totally disappointing! its just a repetition of the last class that we had.. she didnt tell much about the exam and it seem she say 'study everything!' ahhaha.. you should know how thick is our lecture notes! haha.. and how many types of bacteria and tests that we need to remember haha...
the class run for one hour and we went back again to library and as my friend julia need to buy tights for her mom so i accompany her to go=]]
we went to myer.. and as you know.. girls dont go straight to the place that they need to go.. so we pass all this store in melbourne central and finally we reach myer..
we didnt get any in melbourne central.. but we do window shopping! haha (confession!!)
we reach myer and we dont go straight to stockings department! haha.. we pass this mens wear and we found that tommy hilfiger and polo ralph laurent is on sale.. guess what... haha... i end up buying 4 jumper and 2 polo.. BUT this all for my boy friend and gift for coming up friend birthday =]] hehe...good buy! then we bought our self a tight and i get a bargain $7 tight! hehe... winter preparation! =]]
after we finish from stocking department.. our shopping continue and we went to ben sherman sale.. hehe.. and i end up buying 11 items from them.. haha.. ckck,... see how productive is my study! haha... *shy shy*
oh well because too much to carry (excuse! just because no more money! haha.. nope.. no mere we can buy!) we went back to library and see what.. while we are going for shopping..
how cute.. hehe..but im not a red bull drinker.. so i give to my friend..=]
then the study start! till 12pm i went back home and have my beauty sleep after a tiring day!
this is student life during study week..=]]
xoxo
-D
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Wake Up from Laziness
I realize, know and understand the truth about depending and trust in God. How? And what? Its all come back to you knee of praying! But recently laziness drives me away from Him. I’ve been trying so hard to push my self and make sure i do everything on the to do list to pleased God. End up with failing. its not about i don't have anything to pray, but its just lazy! Can you blame the weather because its autumn? Cold? And feel of comfort under your blanket? awww.. This thing is not what God wants. i always reflect my self with 'how if?'.. How if God is lazy to talk and walk with me? How if He doesn't want to lead me? How if... indeed He is not like that! He keeps His promise and He never change! (Glory To You alone)
what makes praying is so hard? isn't it praying should be an easiest thing to do? Praying is all about surrender to God, Trust, Lean on, and Depend on Him. on top of everything, its all about you communication with God. These past weeks ive been through a challenging week. School is busy, lots of things to be catch up and finished, need to start studying for exams, revisions, I've been abandon my ministry, my family has a problem, sick, lazy, lazy and its all about lazy! all this business take me away from my basic needs of praying and what did you do when you are not walking with God? Lacking? fall to a sin? self righteousness? what else? i always question my self, will i be strong enough to go through to all of this and at the end standing right and realize that i'm still as 'Good' as i'm expected? who knows... you don't hold your future. you don't even know what happen in next 2 hours. Something could just Popping up out of your expectation.
Praying is about communication and relationship. to be practical praying is like when you are on the phone with you love ones, mom, dad, bro, sis, or friend but, this time you are making a phone call to father in heaven. Talk with him like you talk with your mom, dad, love one, friend.. and make your self as comfortable as you can. Yes, bible said that you must go to a room, close the door and pray by you self in that room. But personally i will go and pray with my heart. i pray as i study, eat, go to school, on my way back home, showering.. and in any situation i'm in. its like 24/7 communication with our father in heaven and its free.. no connection fee.. No international rates.. and you can call Him as many as you like!
I always feel that God want to use me even more and He wants me to depends and really walk with Him. but, my other heart said no, i cant, i'm not able to. true! To do a great task im not able to. im limited, far from perfect! yet, He speaks and reminds me of the story from moses. when God come and talk with moses in the burning bushes. moses have been ask to lead the people of Israel to go from Egypt and moses reply that he cant, he is not able to. He don’t have any cool sword but, he have a wood stick that he always use in sheperd-ing the sheep. This story hit me straight away! I feel im too weak to carry a burden by my self. I still got a lot of mission to be done. I can say im the only Christian in the family. Yes my mom and bro knows about Jesus and who is He? But, they don’t really understand or they haven’t have a personal encounter with Jesus. My dad knows about Jesus and he still in the process of experiencing Jesus. So, I always feel im carrying a burden by myself, the mission of introducing and let my family experiencing God is not done yet. This few weeks im ‘hiding’ from God. Its quite funny, why? Because no matter fast I run, no matter where im hiding, God knows where I am and who I am. What God wants is wake me up from all laziness, business and be available to Him. Come on dessy, wake up! I know God miss me to come and pray, talk and be transparent to Him. He took my fall away. He cleanses me and He wants me to be use for His kingdom. He wants me to come back to my knee and PRAY! I do miss God, miss every single lovely moments when He come and touch my heart, speaks to me comfort me.
I know he mold me, im Your ‘cake batter’ o lord.. Mold, shape and refine me as You want me to be! Thank you Lord and Sorry for what I’ve done, hiding from you and not listen to you!
He leads me and with His love, faith and patience that He has on me. His mercy, grace and promise endures forever. GBU all.
in His Grace,
-D